Pay Attention, Tousin

Dear Tousin,

I've been thinking of you lots in the last few days.  Its funny, on my really good days my thoughts drift to you.  And on my really bad days, my thoughts drift to you.  You are woven  through out my days and attached wholly to my life.

I cant help, in this last year, to think how quickly our lives can change.  And I think our lives can get so busy that we cant even tell.  We can wake up one day and realize we aren't even who we were the day before. Maybe sometimes, we give too much of our selves away and maybe sometimes we are robbed of something.  Some days, I think its both.

You truly gotta grasp at those good moments and store them away for when they'll next be needed.  Our good moments can change us too.  Pay attention.  Remember, its those sips of coffee that make you relaxed.  Those late night conversations with the ones you love the most, that remind you there's some one who gets you.  Its that time you grabbed someone's hand when you know they cant find the right words to tell you what they are feeling, that make you strong enough.  Its the song lyrics that run through your head when you cant bear the thoughts of what you are really thinking, that make you smile in spite of it all. Its that picture that makes you feel as happy as you were in that exact moment, all over again.

Tousin,  I cant say what the next few hours can bring let alone the next few years, but I do know that we have each other, and thats better than most anything.  I KNOW hard days come but I know they leave too.  I KNOW sometimes its just the breathing that is the hardest, but I know that relief comes to those who are looking.  Pay attention.

And remember, I love you=)

Katie