Hey I've missed you. I've been doing a lot of worrying lately and its exhausting. Tyring to keep up with my life is hectic and I'm tired. I haven't had time to talk to you lately and I think Its about time I do. I've missed you...
I cant say that I have a lot going on with me. Well nothing that time cant fix but I have spent a lot of wasted time worrying mostly about things out of my control.
For a start.. I thinking being a mom in this world has gotten harder. I don't care that we have come along way with the way of raising these babies. I feel like I get so caught up with the online world and comparing notes that it makes my head spin. Who cares about too much sugar and starting early potty train. So what sponge bob square pants isn't educational. I just want to raise this baby in peace. Why is it so hard to let myself do that? PS- I like sponge bob too, i mean who doesn't, right?
I worry about my friends and the decisions they are making. For I some, I'm frustrated that their days have to be so hard, That sleeping at night is not possible. That they need tomorrow to be better so desperately but the clock doesn't move fast enough for them. For others, I think they have lost sight of whats really important. They drifted so far and I'm not sure they want any help.
I worry what the next 10 years will bring our family. Everything is so unpredictable. I pray we are raising Gracie to have the knowledge and the guts to do what she knows to be right. I'm scared to have a teenager. No. I'm terrified. I make Graces eyes light up when I come home. I wonder when that will stop. I wish it didn't have to.
All this stuff is crazy to worry about, after all there is nothing I can do, not really. I feel better just writing it down and sending it to you. Thanks for that.
Don't forget about our wine date tomorrow. Remind me, so I won't. I got lots on my mind, ;) Come see me soon maybe. It just might do us both good!
Love,
Tousin
I will see u this year. And for sure tommorow. I'll buy the wine.... For me. Thats the best I can do. I can't wait to see u and hear u and tell u some stories. And hear yours.
ReplyDeleteLoves u tous xo
As a mommy of another beautiful 2 year old with a definite mind of her own, and another one on the way, sometimes I feel like I can never do enough to be "the perfect mommy". Am I teaching her enough? Stimulating her little brain enough? How many times of watching "Annie" is too many? But, I don't think they really care of we're doing what all the parenting sites say we should be. I think the things they will remember the most when they are grown-ups is the love we show, and the things we teach them about the important things in life and love. The rest, well, will all come out in the wash. :) Soon enough, when they have their own, they'll understand all the worry we went through!
ReplyDeleteThanks rebecca! Congrats on the next new baby!!
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