Change- Weather or not you like it...

I'm sure you've noticed. We talk about it all the time.  Its no mystery.  It happens every year. One can't will it away.  Make all the wishes you want, but you cant change it.  You spent all year willing it come and you spend the rest of your time hoping it will never, ever leave.  Yes, my dear friends,  Summer is ending and winter is on its way.

Out here in Alberta, they say we only have 2 seasons.  Winter and summer.  Summer is a good 3 months.  Winter?  Is the rest of the year.  I almost totally believe that.  This year is no exception.  And I'm finding it hard to let go of summer.  Don't leave me summer.  I'm sorry I was mad at you when it was hot.  Sorry I said that thing about the air conditioner.  I didn't mean it.  I mean, I did at the time, but now I feel like I was joking.

Do we share the same sadness??? Don't get me wrong, I can see the love in the fall.  beautiful brisk mornings and beautiful leaves.  But I feel like desperately grabbing at all things summer and never letting go!

I do, truly, believe those feelings are connected to whats going on in your own life.    You know me, I need to connect things.  I need things to make sense.  every feeling I have I need it to connect SOMEWHERE, to give it its place in my mind. So the fact that summer is ending and I'm maybe losing it, has got more to do with the things in my life that I cant fix or make sense of.  Meaning, If my summer ends, and there are things left unresolved, how on earth can I move on to winter? 

I have the impossible task, of learning to let go of the things I cant control.  I know, I'm not alone here.  I know that.  But some days... well some days I'm just mad about that.  Hence the cleaning(see here, to be reminded, ha) 

So recently, i did something I had been thinking about doing for a long time.  Something that was totally and completely in my hands.  I made a change.  Albeit a minor change.  It doest change my life, because what I wanted to change-  was not in my control.  So I changed it. 

Much like we cant control summer ending or winter coming, some things in our life are uncontrollable.  So I grasped at summer and I'm not letting go.  Not for right now anyways.  My change, while it didn't change my life, it changed my day.  And at this point, I'll take it.

So I wont recommend cutting your hair as an emotional outlet (that would be unwise and never the outcome I'm sure you'd be looking for) I do recommend changing something you are capable of.  Its can be something so small.  But it helps.  It feels good.  Your not sitting there idly waiting for the first leaf to fall, so to speak. 

Friends, Summer will inevitably end and the snow will fly.  That's outta our hands.  Problems in our lives might be outta our control.  But there is so much we can do.  Pull out your sweaters and boots.   turn on your heaters.  Do what we can to survive the winter. And our lives, of course.