I can't believe 2015 is almost over. It's been a year, but I don't have to tell you that. You've been listening. Thank you for that. I feel like we grew uP this year. We changed. We fell apart, all the while falling into a new place. I guess that's not all bad but I'll tell you this much, it hasn't been easy either. My best dream and my worst nightmare all fit into one picture. If that's not truly scary, I'm not sure what is.
Of all the things Geoff and I have survived, this year was our greatest accomplishment to date. We struggled between holding on to what hurts us to our very core, to running full force forward into days that aren't so ugly. Do you know what I mean? The beauty of life, I think, can be, that the days keep on coming no matter what. You can't stop them and you can't hurry them. But day in and day out they pass by.
Not ONE day passes by do I not look at Grace and remember something that makes me lose my breath. Some days, I'm gasping for air, quite literally. And that's the truth. Especially as we get closer to our "1 year anniversary". My quietest moments are my hardest, when I'm least expecting it too. But, this year didn't leave me with nothing, that is for sure.
What we think about, what brings us back around, is remembering those who got us through the rough days. As long as I remember the horribleness, I will NEVER forget, the family and friends that were by our side and I don't just mean literally. You really learn who your real friends and family are when they give you all that they can, when you simply have nothing to return.
We had people that barely know us, send Gracie gifts. We had people who NEVER met us, send donations. We had people we barely talk to, drop by the hospital as soon as word got to them. We were included in prayers that we so desperately needed. We had people that visited EVERY SINGLE DAY. We have people that still ask, if we are ok. Our tiny family has seen first hand how closely knit Jehovahs people are. And especially how well Jehovah provides. That alone makes this year survivable.
Now that this year pretty much over, I know how we survived. I know we managed, even though we're still not sure the storm is over. But I do know this, none of us are the same people that went into the storm...
