Best Pancakes Ever!...

It's funny, you know, this world.  Yesterday I needed to google a pancake recipe. So I input "best pancake recipe".  This first one that came up was labelled "best pancake recipe ever". Well, move over Paula Dean, I'm making pancakes.

I glanced at the recipe to see what made it the best. 2 different types of sugar? In my very limited modest abilities that can barely be called cooking, I thought, "yup, this is the one!" TWO SUGARS, GUYS!!

So I whipped that up with Anna screaming/crawling around my legs. No worries. It's gonna be worth it, it is the best ever, after all! Well once I figured the recipe made them too runny and burner was up too high and I should of waited a little before flipping it(although it made for some interesting looking pancakes)we had 5 BEST EVER pancakes, hot and ready to go.

Well let me tell you, they were nothing to write home about. They were very standard and maybe a teensy bit burnt. Two sugars? Pfft. No difference. They just didn't live up to their label. It was kinda disappointing, given what I was expecting.. But we ate them, and even had 2 leftover for my middle of the night snack. Fuel, so I could write this. And I actually think they were better this early morning. Especially with the right toppings!

I just really feel there is a lesson in here somewhere.  Often in life we have these dreams and they are often quite "promising".  you look close at them and they seem to have all the "ingredients" to make a perfect life.  Even enough variety to be unique. Your own kinda special. You don't for see all that could go wrong or all the distractions along the way that make it tricky. You get busy dreaming, you forget you might have to dial back the" temperature" abit, because too many things can burn you out.

But, you guys, that's not to say you can't have "the best life ever".  Your not hooped before you even start. Everything we do, with the right attitude is a good story- even what might seem mediocre. Really hard, horribly gone a rye, "misshaped" obstacles, can can make for a funny/fun life.  And you never know when, in the middle of the night or in a dark time, something you made/dreamed/planned, gets you through, fuels you, if you will, to the next day.

Or maybe the lesson is, don't google "best pancakes" and expect that to be what you get, haha...

Make Believe With Me...

We are taught from a very young age to "Make Believe".  Everything put before us was colorful and beautiful and shiny.  It still is for my girls too.  Every movie we watch, so full of make believe, I end up wishing the world to be that colorful too.  I still get the appeal in those movies and lets be honest friends, I bring my kids to see those movies, but I bring my little ol' damaged heart too.

So I'm hoping and hoping that I can "make believe'" to a day where I understand the balance of my whole life.  Does that sounds depressing or funny?  If you know me, you know I mean it funny but I think your all coming around to the idea that all my humour has deep seeded sadness.  HAHA.  But all the good ones do, am I right?

But really, all the movies, these toys and games, they all try to make you see the positive.  Be your own hero.  (you don't need no man, haha), know one day you'll make it, even if your not sure how.  Every terrible step that makes our feet ache also makes our heart beat a little faster and makes you feel a little something.  Relentlessly pray that your feet can take the pressure and your heart wont give out. 

And heres the thing, Friends, Those little tiny bodies we take to see to those bright, glitzy movies, are always watching us from the corner of their eyes,(and sometimes even more obviously ha) They are the most hopeful for these make believe worlds that we have built around them.  They are a lovely thing.  Keep them up for as long as we can.  Because I don't want it to be me that topples those dreams.  Not the way I act or what I say or ESPECIALLY how I make them feel.

Look, I know I'm 32 but I think I'm gonna make believe, just a little longer...I have a couple of good reasons...