My thoughts run wild and free and I know so little about controlling them. As a person with mental health issues(that I try not to make a habit of talking about, ha) my thoughts are often panicked and quite frantic. They drift between, wondering how to be the perfect house wife, mom, and friend, to, "should I get a dog?".
This is not a joke. Sometimes on my worst days, I think, I should surprise the family, really shake things up. Bring home a adorable puppy. Then our lives would be so much more complete. Meanwhile, I haven't properly cleaned my own home. We need groceries to fill the fridge and my hair is in desperate need of washing. But I cant think in a straight line. And a puppy could fix everything.
Thats insane I know, and I''m almost always able to reign those thoughts in, or, have someone else help me. So, no, we don't have a puppy and I don't even want one today. TODAY. At least in this moment. At least not before lunch. HA!
But people like me, or, ha, just me, when we get the energy AND the idea on the same moment, we, me, tend to run with it. Pack it all in, because we don't know when that's all going to come crashing down, quite frankly.
So yes, I'll wake up one morning and decide to paint the bathroom, while spring cleaning between coats drying. I'll clean out the car and gut the house, take the bottles to the depot, and mow the lawn. I'll do that in a morning, because I can. The next day I could be in bed all day.
I feel the lows but on man do I feel the highs, haha. And those frantic thoughts make up me. At least at this point in my life. So from the outside I may look like I'm under control but on the inside, I'm wondering if I should buy a boat?
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