This could really be a good life...

I don't know if it was that the sun shone last night before it set or maybe it was the song on the radio.  Maybe it was just a good day.  Or maybe I wasn't even aware that I was having bad days until I was having a good one.  But it was.  A good day, I mean. 

I'm not the person to rub it in your face that I'm happy. I don't believe those people, anyhow. I think if your telling people your happy all the time, your lying to them and yourselves.   I think I feel the need to be excited about feeling good even for silly reasons because I'm not a person that can be like that.  I don't know if that sounds pathetic or funny.  I'm usually pretty ok with it. But there are moments, and I'm thankful for these, that I know exactly what I got in this life and I'm pretty grateful for that.

I have been blogging with you for just over a year now, did you know that?  I think I get made fun of a little bit for that.  I guess that's ok.  But I have really enjoyed it.  It helps me.  I try to be pretty honest with how I view things.   I do leave out the horrible details of my life and of those I talk about ,I guess, because I just don't want to rant and its not my place to say.  I just want to talk.  And I dont want to reflect anyone's opinions cuz thats not fair.  I just want to write, I guess.

My world can be pretty small.  I like that.  I know I'm not cut out for world travelling.  I'm not a gourmet chef.  I can't sew.  I cant draw.  I havent got a ton of friends.  But I really love what I have in this life.  And the few really great friends I have, I can talk to any time I want to.  And I do.  But my world is bigger when I do this.  And not because there is a small handful of people who read this (and ask about me when I havent posted in a while.  Thanks for that by the way.).  But because I'm doing something that I love doing, outside of being a mom.

You know that city skyline always makes me think.  And when the sun hits it, it sure shines.  I dunno, maybe I just needed a little sunlight, or a moment to breath.  Or maybe I just NEEDED to see it that afternoon.  Whatever- makes no difference now, but it was nice...

"'Cause hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about"