Its not always about me.

I have been scurrying around lately, but in no apparent direction.  Start on one job, then on to the next.  Get to one appointment, then on to the next.  Make one phone call, then on to the next.  You can see what I mean?

I haven't wanted to blog because, well, I feel so overwhelmed, and sad, and tired, and crazy.  ALOT crazy. and ALOT tired.  And I could complain until I'm blue in the face, but who likes THAT person? HAHA, Am I that person?  Oh, Gosh, I think I am.  I better watch myself, its a slippery slope, my friends.

So, down time for me has not been an option.  Yes I could have made time for it, but that's when the sadness and the like, kick in and I got no more room for that.  So Last night I set myself a couple small goals.  Nothing huge, but something attainable.  And bottom line?  Something that could make me feel good.  Maybe even better.

Then through the night, Grace was up several times, and the last time she just came into bed with us.  But couldn't get comfortable.  Have you ever let a big dog try to sleep with you in your bed?  Have you ever noticed they can't seem to get comfortable?  They flip and they flop, they sigh and they groan.  Then they want up and out?  Well, that was my Gracie this morning.  At 5 or so.  Yes, our day started at 6 in the morning, thanks for asking!

Now, quite usually I would of let my day go down the drain.  Sleep when she sleeps, watch cartoons with her and so on.  But, I"M SO TIRED OF FEELING TIRED.  And not just physically- mentally.  So, I got Grace and I cleaned up for the day.  This included her staying in the bathroom with me while I tried to shower.  Haha, She was into everything, toilet brush not exempt.  But, there are worse problems.  And we were able to be out of the house by ten for a few groceries.  Not bad, not bad at all(for us).

So, one of my goals today was to make a simple meal for a couple in our congregation that has had a rough go of it, especially lately.  These people, are people we love.  When there gone you miss them, and when you see them you smile.  So I picked a meal that I am comfortable making and did it. I actually did it.

Now, I would hate for you to think I'm bragging.  I'm not.  Truth be told, I should of done this long ago.  I didn't, but I did now.  And I would hate for you to think I do this kind of thing all the time.  I don't.  I probably should be, lord knows there's people that could use a some help.

And as long as we're telling the truth, I think I did it more for me, than anybody.  I needed to feel good, even if it only gets me through the next hour.  Every little bit counts.  Especially to me.  Especially right now.

Anyhow, my dear friends, If your feeling a little down and its been for far too long, switch the focus to something or someone else.  It'll help.  And even if it doesn't, your helping in the Grander scheme of things. Someone needs to know there being thought of, or looked after, or missed.

Do good and don't worry to whom

-Mexican proverb